Addicts love to get clean.
Heroin addiction is cyclical. At least in my world. My brother has been clean more times than I care to remember and has been high more times than anyone ever should be. It is not a pretty life.
Last time we spoke he had come by the restaurant. He was headed into a 9 month rehab program and wanted to say goodbye. I was hopeful, but having watched him go in and out of detox / rehab facility, I was highly suspect.
He lasted 2 months.
He got kicked out for fighting (?) and has now come back into my life.
I have seen him twice since he got kicked out of the facility and he looks good. He’s clean. He’s sober. He’s got a sponsor. But he’s still an addict, and addicts love to get clean.
Here’s what I mean.
The way heroin works, according to what I have seen go down in a 5 year addiction, is this:
Addict shoots up.
Addict shoots up a lot.
Addict shoots up so much that said addict can no longer get high with a small amount of heroin.
Addict is a junkie and can therefore not afford large amounts of heroin, so addict goes to detox.
Detox cleans addicts system out.
Addict can choose one of 2 ways, clean or junk.
Addict chooses junk.
The cycle begins again.
I have watched this go down with my brother over 20 times. I hope I don’t have to watch it a 21st time. I would like my brother back. For real this time.